Help!!!

I am so freaked out right now. I try to make it stop, but I can't. Something is snapping in my head and I really wish it would just quit it.

It felt weird coming home yesterday. I got home from Van and stayed in the house all of two hours or so before heading out at about 9:30. I mean seriously, I never leave the house that late usually. I got back at about 2:00 a.m. and still didn't go to bed for probably at least half an hour, doing whatever I was doing on the computer. I reluctantly got out of bed at 1:00 in the afternoon today and still wish I could be sleeping right now.

I tried to listen to some music but sometimes I don't know if that makes me feel better or just exacerbates everything. I started feeling the latter, so I just turned it off.

Too much is happening at once. I hate when I think too much, but I have to think in order to figure out what to do. Something is going to explode if I don't. But I don't know what to do. I don't know anything. I think this is one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me.

I've tried everything I can think of to distract myself to put it out of my mind. But nothing works. Nothing has worked for a long time now. I'm running out of ideas, and everything is just really freaking me out right now.

I feel broken.