Random thoughtball of the day.

(Look Kara, I finally used it in a sentence. Okay fine...it's a sentence fragment. Whatever. Who the fuck cares about grammar anyway?)

I keep thinking I want to write something, but I can never really think of a good way to put what I'm thinking about.

Good lord, I just used the word 'think' three times in that sentence. It's a word I should really banish from my vocabulary.

*sigh* I go up and down and in and out and through and around....always around...I'm always going somewhere, it seems. It's been an interesting time so far here in Vancouver, nothing extremely exciting, but a lot of things that I'm just noticing around me and it has been a lot to take in.

I'm starting to miss human contact a little though.

My mind swims. Sooo much swimming. I've been pretty successful at ignoring it while I've been over here, what with all the above-mentioned distractions and all. Though I get kind of concerned about the point where I'll have nothing to distract myself with anymore and I'll have some kind of fit.

The war within my head has been laying low and could be viewed as comical at this point, to myself, and anyone I'd try to explain it to. But really, just like nervous laughter, it's just a lighter way of putting things so that I don't have to notice the painful side of the situation. But I will eventually; that much is inevitable.

I get so confused. So, so, so, so, SO confused. I have no idea why I am the way I am. I mean, sure, you could say no one does. And perhaps everyone is thinking this exact same thing, right now. Maybe they are, but that argument doesn't get me any closer to my own solution.

I look at things in a self-teasing point of view at the moment, but truth be told, I am less than content with my current thought processes. But I guess that much is already evident.

Males are also confusing. Interesting, but confusing. >_>

I like that t-shirt that says, "Boys are stupid, throw rocks at them."

I propose that me, Kara and Tanya run away together.

(No Jean, you can't come. :P)

Okay, I think I'm done now. I'll continue my thoughts (or at least explain some of them) tomorrow or something. Tata.

xoxo,

Me